Closing towards the end of the week and first challenge!

Since Tuesday I have been sticking to the ‘only eat home cooked meals’ challenge and it hasn’t been easy. But I’ve been experimenting in the kitchen and it has helped me to be organised and for once be committed to something and see it through. I’ve been eating a lot of pasta but mixing it with different things and I made fish and chicken breast fillet too. I’m not used to making pasta sauce from scratch and I did not realise that I cut the onions and garlic too big (until someone told me). The garlic was big enough for the taste of garlic to be in my mouth for more than 24 hours, even after chewing gum and brushing my teeth...now imagine how big the garlic slices were LOL my friend my breath was kicking but it was my first time and I didn’t know how to cut them. But someone showed me so now I know for next time.

Today has been the hardest day this week because I was full of emotions, felt weak and had no motivation. I went to bed like this and woke up like this, with my mind all over the place. I really didn’t want to get up early this morning, nor make an effort to get ready, nor make my breakfast. But because I want to be faithful in this challenge I decided to make my full englidh breakfast!(I made scrambled eggs for the fiirst time and they came out well). I was crying as I was making the breakfast because my mind was full of negative thoughts that wouldn’t go away and my 'faith' seemed ineffective. I was battling between two thoughts but I managed to get through it. It was hard because I usually go by my emotions and submit to them but I had to do what I didn’t want to do. Its helped realise how I handle things spiritually and that this is what I have to do spiritually speaking, even though I don’t feel free, believe I am free (as long as I'm not living in sin of course!), even though I don’t feel close to God, believe He is next to me. Even if I don’t feel to pray, pray etc.

So that is my lesson of the day, overcome the emotions and do the opposite to what I am feeling