But today wasn’t easy. I was very frustrated because i had to change my routine, prepare my clothes the night before, wake up early, make my breakfast, make sure my room was tidy before i left the house and make sure my appearance was decent . I was trying to fit all this in 1 hour and 15 minutes and not be late for work at the same time. I'm used to just waking up, having a bath, finding whatever to wear, do my hair and leave the house. If i have time i'll grab something from the bakery or mcdonalds. Lunchtime and towards the end of the afternoon was hard seeing people eating Subway, McDonalds, Greggs etc wasn’t easy. I was tempted even to buy pizza but i resisted and waited until I got home to make my food, and boy couldn’t i wait to wet home as a was beginning to become ratty because of hunger. When I am hungry I'm quite mood and i did have a long face (which is forbidden in sisterhood so am working on my facial expressions too).
I was begginning to lose interest and thought i was taking this too seriously. But because I set the challenge and made a vow I had to fulfil it. I couldn’t turn back from it, and God already showed me that’s what I always do. When I don’t like something or things get difficult and uncomfortable for me I complain, come up excuses and either give up or try and find an easy way, with that 'God understands' attitude. But not this time, I have to discipline myself and organise myself. If I can’t do this on a physical level, how am I meant to do it on a spiritual level? Being faithful, discplined and organise in the small things, will help when it comes to more difficult and bigger things.
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