Growing pains

“The deeper I dig, the more flaws and ugly things I find, things I did not even know existed inside of me. My mistakes seem to be coming to surface and I feel like I am being exposed. I feel like I am being broken into pieces. I don’t “feel” my usual self. This pain I am experiencing is beyond the pain I feel when I fall and hurt myself. This pain is not going away within seconds or minutes, but rather it finds itself itching away at me for a period of time. I cry, I groan, I ask why? Why am I going through this painful experience? Why do all the walls seem to be crashing down on me and those around me are of no great help. They don’t even understand what I am going through. I feel powerless before most situations.” 

 I introduce you to growing pains! Just like some of us experienced growing pains and aches in our legs as we grew and developed physically as children, during our journey with God, we will find ourselves going through spiritual growing pains. It is not nice at all and you do feel like you are being broken into pieces but it is essential for our spiritual growth because God is working inside of us. 

For there to be more of Him in us, there has to be less of us and the only way for that to happen is by God breaking us within and moulding us to how He wants us to be. Many ugly things that are hidden inside of us are revealed and as we humble ourselves to recognise them He starts removing them. 

Through the growing pains, God is producing something inside of us, which is needed for us to move to another level in our spiritual life, acquire a bigger responsibility or to receive a blessing that we are fighting for. I don’t know about you but when I go through moments like this, I find myself constantly “at the feet of Jesus” and drawing myself much more closer to God. 

We develop and grow through pain and we are able to glorify His name after enduring this experience because we shine brighter and become mature in our faith.